Thursdays are for Jenny Craig weigh-ins!

or not.

We cancelled our Jenny Craig appointment yesterday because, well, 1) I was under the weather and 2) we had company stopping over at the same time.

So now it’s confession time.  Before I realized that I actually had these great excuses, I was actually planning to cancel the appointment anyway because, frankly, I was too fat to get on the scale.  Plus, what would I say?  I have spent most of the week leading up to the appointment eating whatever amount of whatever I wanted.  (And, yes, this was the week after Thanksgiving week in which I gained 2 lbs. contrary to my goal.)  And, since I’m on a roll airing my dirty laundry, last night, for the first time since we began the Jenny Craig program, my husband and I teamed up on ordering a 15″ diameter of meaty, cheesy, saucy, greasy pizza pie of goodness!  How about I go on and tell you there were only two slices of leftovers for the kids’ lunch today.  Ouch.  This is the second time we’ve reverted to our old ways of late night 4th meal eating.  The last time was a few months ago and Burger King’s array of heart attack burgers and fries won out.

I’m not proud of this.  So why do I even tell?  I could just keep it as a secret and “try harder” this week.  You know why?  Because there is freedom on bringing our sins into the light.  Now, Satan has no authority over that greasy little secret.  He cannot keep me down. He cannot steal my joy.  He cannot lie to me about how horrible I am on this diet and succeed at convincing me that I should just quit.  John 10:10 I believe what God says in the Scriptures and I’m thankful that He will forgive me and afford me a a fresh start….again.

1John 1:5-10 reads:

⁵This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. ⁶If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. ⁷But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from allsin.

⁸If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. ⁹If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. ¹⁰If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word has no place in our lives.

taken from BibleGateway

As I sit here nibbling on the Jenny Craig Turkey Burger (which is delish, by the way), I am even more excited about the opportunities ahead of me this week to conquer this issue buried deeply inside.  As Sasha (my super great Jenny Craig consultant) always says, “It’s PROGRESS, not PERFECTION.”  I can make lots of great choices for my health even today.

I think today I’ll:  1) not eat and nibble all afternoon, 2) measure out my dinner portion and eat nothing more, 3) no eating before bed unless it’s a health choice like fruit or yogurt, etc. and I’m legitimately hungry.  And, tomorrow, Saturday, there’s all sorts of time to find a 30-min. workout!

My chances of dying young are already significantly diminished thanks to the 30+ pounds I’ve removed.  But, the journey is not over.  It will be a series of ups and downs, for sure, but I’m so thankful to be doing this with my husband (and Sasha) AND with the supernatural power, strength, and healing that comes from my Creator, the Living God.