Isn’t being perfect, supposed to be perfect?

You’ll notice (well, if you didn’t before you may be tempted to go look really quick) that I started this blog about a month and a half ago.  Started it and then….well….that was it.  Since then the “task” of blogging has only been a to-do item on my growing list.  I hate (here is where I should insert “don’t care for” because hate isn’t allowed in our house. However, it’s a fitting word choice and technically this blog isn’t my house….:o) the fact that I start things and don’t finish.  And, come to think of it, I dislike the fact that I usually DON’T start things at all, either.

I’ve come to realize that it all boils down to the fact that perfectionism prevents me from really starting anything because it is just too much pressure to be perfect.  And, I have to be perfect.  So, I’m better off to not start anything at all.  God forbid that I actually do something to completion that isn’t great.  That would be a reflection of me–who I am; my worth as a person.  I have determined my worth my whole life based on the quality of my work–what I do.  It has often led to not starting any work at all.  This mindset, no–heart condition, is grossly in error!!!  And I believe that this mourns my Lord.  God wants me to lead a productive, fruitful life.  And, He wants me to know my value, my worth, is based nothing on it.  Look!  It’s right here in the book of Truth, the Holy Bible:

“…God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him.” (Genesis 1:27, NIV)

“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.  I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works…” (Psalm 139:13-14, ESV)

“I have loved you with a love that lasts forever.” (Jeremiah 31:3a, NIRV)

“You didn’t choose me.  I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit–fruit that will last.” (John 15:16, NIV)

If I can just get that nugget of wisdom from my mind to my heart (the world’s longest road), I think life would be so much more enjoyable.  I have permission to screw up!  It is OK for me to fail!

Which brings me to where I began…I haven’t blogged since the day I signed myself up as a blogger becaue I’m too afraid to write my thoughts here knowing full well that they won’t be perfect.  Maybe they won’t be organized enough, or funny enough, or interesting enough or concise enough.  It would take me more time and effort than I realisitically have to make them so before I post them here. And, what if you don’t like them?  That is why I haven’t blogged.  The business of being perfect actually sucks.

I do declare, that henceforth, all of my blogginess will likely be mismatched, incomplete, unorganized, and otherwise not perfect in most ways.

SIDENOTE:  I’m soakin’ up a secular book on the topic if procrasination called, The NOW Habit by Neil Fiore  (part one, so far).